
My symptoms
Here you’ll find the list of my symptoms, devided in visible and invisible.
The invisible one are hard to explain, but I’ll try my best.

Visible
-Spasms
-Tremors
-Speech difficulty (at times)
-Difficulties in fine motor skills
Don’t know what something is/means?
NO WORRIES!
Invisible
- pain in: hands, arms, legs, back, shoulders.
-brain fog
-time keeping
-Anxiety
-Depression
-Anger
-swallowing difficulty
-eye fog
-incontinence
-fatigue
-MS hug

WHAT IS IT LIKE, NOW?
Limbs and walking
At the moment, pain is ever present, along with spasms whilst walking or using the muscles in general.
Both in legs and arm.
Typing and writing is difficult and painful.
As it is sitting for a long period of time.
Brain fog and fatigue take over my “good leg day” so, if it isn’t something, it’s something else.
I have difficulties holding objects (from as little as a mug), lifting them (muscle weakness) or moving them.
I can walk but with conditions.
I would like to make it clear that there is nothing wrong with my legs per-se.
It’s the connection that is failing. So although I’ve always been pretty flexible and still am, I can move, but some movements I better avoid since very painful. Like open my hips like a book. You know? Like sitting crossed legs…
Spasms and pain, make it difficult to walk normally, so my walking movement starts from the knee, having me actually walking like a little Geisha with no hurry 😅.
I also have to stop every so often if I wanna get more resistance to continue.
The pace has to be deliberately slow.
If I sit for long periods, my body feels like going rock solid, and getting up will be painful and the ability to walk compromise.
So, I have to stand and move at regular intervals.
Which makes travelling and activities like cinemas painful.
In conclusion: standing hurts, sitting hurts, walking hurts.
Coincidentally incontinence, which I think might be one of the oldest symptoms, is still persistent and now I have less control of my bowel movements as well!
Yeah I know, the mice have been busy!
If you make me laugh harder, I’ll involuntarily piss/shit in my pants!
Which obliges me to carry spare underwear on the go, beside wearing disposable pants.
• SSSSSHHHHHH! Don’t tell anyone I’m only in my 30s!
Sometimes, the throat nerve glitches, therefore I might choke or dry heave, depending on the situation.
Not very nice.
Sometimes it affects my appetite.
If I have to heave on every little piece of food, I’ll rather avoid eating altogether.
It just takes the pleasure out of it.
In conclusion: avoid small foods, like rice and peas, don’t laugh too hard, make sure a bathroom is always near.
Nerve glitches, food and incontinence
Brain juices vs social life
Then let’s see…..
I find it challenging and overwhelming hanging out in crowded spaces.
It’s hard for my brain to stay focused on the person speaking, whilst other people around me are talking, even worse if they are loud. So I rather avoid enclosed spaces like pubs or restaurants, unless empty of course!
I know. Kinda the reverse of being social, people go out to mingle, I rather hang out far away from the masses.
Focusing requires a lot of energy, triggering the fatigue, and after 5 mins I’m ready to go back home.
Writing this takes an extreme use of focus and I still get stuck a lot, because I can’t make sense of anything.
In that case I need to step away, and ask for help, to read and comprehend complicated information for instance.
It’s like I have ADHD & ADD all together.
In conclusion: avoid crowded spaces, parties, and just stay home. Or go and get frustrated and angry, because you can’t follow a conversation.